Thursday, September 18, 2008

Child of Mine

So today I should be on my way to my church's annual Ladies Retreat at Myrtle Beach. Since Coen had surgery on tuesday, I felt like I should stay at home (although he acts like he never even had surgery). I really miss being with all my girlfriends laughing, talking, cutting up...staying up late. I have been in a real funk lately and needed the time away. But, life is and I am completely satisfied to stay at home and take care of my sweet baby boy.



As I was driving around today, a song came on the radio that really spoke to me. It is Child of Mine by Mark Schultz. The words of this song were so captivating to me at this moment. Listen to this ...You are a child of mine born of my own design and you bear the heart of life, no matter where you go oh, you will always know you've been made free in Christ. You are a child of mine.



This song spoke to me so strongly because on days such as today when I struggle with all my self-esteem issues. To know that I am His child, born of His own design...wow. I've heard this song a hundred times, but I have never had it hit me like this before. Maybe its just the place that I am in. Trying to let God take control of all of my negative self talk and behavior. If I am born of God's design then that means to Him, I am beautiful. No matter what I think of myself or what I think someone else thinks of me, to God, I am perfect the way I am because He made me. What parent doesn't think their child is beautiful? That's the way God views us. I am going to try to get this song up so you all can hear it. Just remember when you are not fitting into those pants, when your life feels like it has no direction, when you burn dinner, or when you just feel like you've got nothing, remember you are made of His design.

Okay I could not figure out how to put the song up here but here are the lyrics to the song. I hope that soon I can get the song up.

Child of Mine
Mark Schultz

I’ve been hearing voices
Telling me that I could Never be what I wanna be.
They’re binding me with lies,Haunting me at night,And saying there’s nothing to believe.
Somewhere in the quietness,When I’m overcome with loneliness,
I hear You call my name.
And like a father You are nearAnd as I listen I can hear You say
Chorus
You are a child of Mine
Born of My own design And you bear the heart of life.
No matter where you go,Oh, you will always know
You have been made free in Christ.You are a child of Mine
And so I listen as You tell me who I am And who it is I’m gonna be.
And I hang on every word,Knowing I have heard I am Yours and I am free
But when I am alone at night That is when I hear the lieYou’ll never be enough
And though I’m giving into fearIf I listen I can hear You say
Chorus
I am calling…I am calling…I am calling…

4 comments:

Nan said...

Well said my friend. Amen.

Holly said...

Crys, you have to be one of the prettiest friends I have - almost scared to stand next to you for fear of looking fat - but would stand with my arms around you if it would offer some encouragment! I love you so!

Crystal Locklear said...

I love you too Holly! I am so blessed to have so many wonderful women in my life.

Rebekah said...

Crystal,
Okay, so I'm stalking you off of Facebook. ;) You will NEVER know how much this entry matches my own sentiments about myself. You'll just never know. I love that song too, and looking at the lyrics tonight- well that's just what I needed. I came home from school feeling pretty lousy about myself (which I often do). Thanks for sharing those words and your blog page too.
I LOVE YOU!!! You are a dear lady to me!